Nishas world and baby Alisha

The two videos the first one which is off the new Titanic in 3D, and below is just links because i couldn't get the embed code, is Breaking Dawn. Titanic wil always be close to my heart and is one of my fave movies, in fact i already call it a fave! I watched it for the umpteenth time and cried whenever i did.. haha.. so obviously i'm dying to watch the 3D as well.

I watched twilight on tele itself, but i hope i am lucky enough to watch Breaking Dawn at the cinema hall at least!




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QMHXi8bjyPc&feature=related

Tomorrow is Aprils fools day and i am planning something to fool my friends online. Its like every year i do something or the other to fool them and this year i don't know how things are going to go off, if my plans are going to work or going to go haywire! hahaha... I'm not saying what i am about to do because then you wouldn't fall for it!?

For now just let me share with you all a few of my previous April fools pranks on my family. One year i had served salted tea to my husband at breakfast and he was like almost bringing up but i had a huge laugh but had to be forgiven because it was April fools day after all, and my cruelty was justified! I dare do that again though.... ;-)

I don't know if i've shared this song before on music monday but its a special day today... Its my hubby's Birthday and so i dedicate this song to him :-)

Happy Birthday my darling Hubby :-)

To all you folks out there, enjoy the song and have a happy music monday week ahead.... :-)



"You're Still The One"

(When I first saw you, I saw love.
And the first time you touched me, I felt love.
And after
all this time, you're still the one I love.)
Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

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Im so Bored at home today with nothing to do, nothing much of my interest as in... so i decided to write a poem on my favorite topic Love. But before that let me tell you i was so happy in the morning because i was able to see one my siblings and bring her home! The delight she bought to me is of unexpressed emotions, and i could also see the same excitement in her. We dont get to meet because she is so busy with her schooling so one can imagine my happiness!

The kids loved her spending time with us here and i got the chance to show her how you operate the internet as she is far from the net world die to her hectic schedule of studies, school and tutions. Hope to see her again soon!

Now back to my poetry writing, its still incomplete! I would post it some other day as, as i write i am almost going to fall on my desk with sleep taking over mee........... ZZZZZZZZZ

What i thought was supposed to be a shopping trip today for my birthday next month, turned out to a surprise from my hubby who had something else in mind... he couldn't wait to gift me my personal laptop on my birthday 25th Feb, he did it today!!!! I'm extremely excited... as i don't have to break my back and neck any more!!!! lol... Love you darling ;-) :-)

That was a facebook status update i posted yesterday, but my laptop hasn't yet arrived! I'm sure it will, soon, as the delivery was supposed to today but could have been help up due to reasons only known to my hubby. I'm too excited and dying to bid gooodbye to my desktop because i'll no more have to take pains sitting continuously in one place or even break my neck and back by the posture i sit for hours!My desktop is positioned awkwardly and it does affect my eyes too!

Anyways, my first personal lappie and gifted in advance, just too much to digest for now! haha i'll be retiring and my kids are gonna replace me here! they've already been playing on the other desktops at home but this screen is huge and good for games. We're all too excited! but lets see, hopefully tomorrow will be receiving the awaited package and there is lots more to celebrate about... i'm not saying anything now... ;-) :-)

New Year is not just about the changing of your calendars... It's about changing your attitude towards life every year from negative to positive thinking, from bad to good deeds... gives you a chance to reevaluate and renew your goals, close old chapters to open new ones and revitalize your whole self! The year will be what you make out of it... Wishing everyone, my readers and the whole world, including myself, a very happy, healthy, and a prosperous New Year :-)

Dont know why my senses not working cant seem to write anything, lost my inspiration to write poetry and its not a feel good thing at all! :( I don't think i could put anymore effort into making others happy draining whatever i have left of me! Its not worth, its just pointless when you're not going to get appreciated in return!

Why do people you give your whole self to, never want to appreciate it in the first place but do expect lot more?

Once again we're on November, the month that was always special to me for some reasons unmentionable here but i can only hope this year which i didn't expect would be pain and nothing more will bring me some happiness before we bid farewell into a new year!

Lot of hopes and expectations, as well as wishes and dreams kept away in some corner of my sad and lonely heart and here is where i put it to words.. but i guess what is supposed to be, will be... we cant control anything at all just put our best, and God sees to the rest.

Miss my sister baby sis Amanda(Mandy) who turns sweet 16 today and wondering what shes doing today as she might be celebrating her birthday at the boarding but i wont be able to wish her, coz when we are not even able to meet her, talk to her, or even share sisterly affection being so close yet so far... i wont be able to wish her but on this day i would like to tell her to reach for the stars, never settle for less, and live life to it's fullest.. i'm sad i cant wish you but i did dream about it which means I live reality in dreams, strange but true... we'll be together some day, and we'll make up for all the sisterly love, and fights we missed...and want her to know i'm thinking about her and that i love and care for her... :) :(

Update- 9.am, 27th Oct
The day isn't over so i wish you dear sis, Happy Birthday once again... God bless you Mandy, may you pass out of school with flying colors and i wish you all the happiness of the world... i'm happy for you, even though your are away and i miss you so much and i keep remembering your childish habits and love for dance, and music like me, but you've got to study hard and reach new heights we'll all be proud of... its a whole year since i've met you and dying to see you again... we might be away from each other but you're always in my heart, in all our hearts... we share a bond that nothing can sever, always remember this... i know one day we'll be reading this together and i want to say, i still remember how i danced in the middle of the fields in school on this day many years ago when i heard of your birth! i was overjoyed coz you were what i always wanted, a younger sis, and dint get peace until i saw you for the first time on reaching home from school... Alisha resembled you as a baby! you both looked like Chinese dolls, pink, chink and chubby, and i see you in her when i miss you but i need you sis! So be good, girl, study hard and stay away from trouble... i hope your day was filled with lots of love and laughter... take care, from all of us here :-)

Tomorrow i'll be even more sad watching all the celebrations and fireworks going off on roof tops!! The first ever Diwali i'm just sitting at home doing nothing!! miss my siblings like anything... wish i could join them... but yeah, we'll make the best out of times wasted at the end of the year, and with this thought at least i'm quite excited now... for those busily celebrating, wish you a happy and safe Diwali :-)

This is the festival of lights i'm talking about, celebrated across India.. coming up on my next post in details!! :-)

Feeling a little down and too emotionally exhausted but better in health today, not that i'm completely recovered but got to push myself to do things i don't feel like... still got fever and body ache, feels as if my bones are being crushed between boulders! I'm also developing a mind blockage, cant seem to find proper words to express what i'm trying to say, but of course i can understand i'm being ignored, thing is cant even understand how people can ignore you when you've been their pillar of strength at one point of time. Seems as if there is guilt within them...

Things don't seem to fall into place for me... wonder if i'm asking for too much from others! People just deny facts and lie up to your face and that is what gets on my nerves when people don't own up to mistakes! Rather blame others for their own faults and its definitely not fair on their parts but at the moment just got to have the patience to see what falls into place soon... got to watch my steps, for if i react and it doesn't go well with others, might spoil the whole scenario i created! So lets just smile with teary eyes and keep the game on......

Seems like it raining too many hailstones on my this year again. The weather is not at all good to me, coz even though it rains heavily nurturing mother earth, i'm not being nurtured but shattered to pieces! Fever, aches, and cough seems to have raided my body giving me the chills of never-ending 'missing you's'... i miss so many people in my life at the point of time when i don't even know which shall win over, life or death! All i can do is pen down and vent out....

Every time i think of new life, i never even next to it and my life turns bitter with every new chapter i begin with... for every chapter i flip over has its bitter sweet memories, and its lessons taught and learned. But i don't want to talk about chapters now, its about my health which i've always been neglecting wasting my energy on useless things! Got to incorporated a healthy lifestyle once again into my daily routine for how it was last year, i would have been mellowing in glad tidings by now... for me to hint and you to understand ;-)

And once again i will have to withdraw from certain things i walked into too hastily without thinking... i will not walk away but give time to myself and everyone else to understand what is what before finally deciding further...

With brain fluctuations as if a light bulb keeps flashing in my head which pains, fever, vomiting, cough and body-aches i'm going to go insane in the next few days! i sense so many things about to happen to me... but i don't want to repeat another year of treatments and torturous medicines so what going to happen only the one above knows! This year hadn't really taken off well with lot of incidents occurring and too many snakes to handle but somehow managed to wade through it all with quite ease, as least i'm where i am without being harmed! I realized it's not God who's given us tough times but it's our own actions and decisions in life which places us in the position we are in....

We don't blame God when good and satisfactory things happen to us and thank him for the contentment... but we blame him for not listening and answering our prayers in unpleasant times, but what we don't realize is that, what is life if there is no suffering... after all one learns from mistakes when temptations strike and gains from the pains you endure!

Whatever it is, i hope and pray for happier times ahead... Happy Sat/Sunday everyday! :-)

Welcome October! so we have stepped on the month i had been waiting for... time to put in our cottons and pull out the woolens! Its also the month when the Autumn season begins. I begin writing a poem about the season but i've left to complete for i need to really focus on intense emotions to write unlike now... i'm a bit gloomy, but not that intense when i can focus on my emotions and pen them down.

Lets see what tomorrow will bring for this caged bird as i will be going out to a heritage Plaza in my city named Swabhumi. A home bird who hardly move out of home when walks in open space would surely bring eyes upon me as i feel like an alien being stared at. But anyways, i love shopping there at the part apart from admiring the place with all its olden calcutta architectural history as derived from a legend and feasting! Mouth watering pani puri (We all love it, don't we, esp the calcuttans :-)) and other other traditional Rajasthani, Gujarati and South Indian dishes, and more, are served, tantalizing your taste buds such much until you savor them contentedly!

Here is where you get the best, people say who flock to our city during tourism visits or relatives visiting. But let me tell you that most of all the shopping is what i love. What attracts me most is all the traditional stuff you there, i never get to see anywhere else in the whole city. There are also programms and events which take place at the courtyard, and its a delight to watch the clowns walking on stilts come up to you and shake hands esp the kids who are most of the times frightened! Aryan as a kid was always scared of the clowns and so is Alisha when she is the same age as Aryan was as a funk! Hehe..

A great sense of peace and calm is what i get from this place... so it's a must to visit at least once in few months at least if i cant possibly make it every month :-)

And so we are bidding goodbye to a month that was paved with thorns and a few roses, with a river of tears and wee bit of happiness. The month of September had seen me on an emotional roller coaster, with outbursts of harsh and cold feelings, and sometimes on the wings of a dove... but as i keep saying that its a part of life! Don't know what will October bring for me as but for sure i always get nostalgic about things gone by. But hope to see a new September when it comes around next year :-)

On the 18Th of next month my Alisha will turn 5 years, OMG! i just cant believe how the years have flown by... she was a little baby in my arms and now she is one talkative girl blossoming into the flower i want her to grow into. She can talk so much that it leaves me amazed sometimes, if i'm hearing the same pinkish little Chinese baby i bought home from the hospital :-)

Its been months i have written about her... how i wish i could sit and pen down everything i remember in these months... all the milestones... some maybe i had even missed out being so busy! Phew! But yeah come her birthday and i would be the happiest mom to see my daughter touching a new one! Her fifth birthday! Welcome everyone, to the party of the 18Th :-)

Was in for a shock yesterday when i tried logging into my blogger dashboard coz to my disappointment i was greeted with a page error! I had loads of pending work and was unable to connect to blogger... no site hosted on blog-spot was opening too. Was frustrating as ever and it was then i was regretting not having my self hosted on blog-spot! I wouldn't have bothered if there no assignments to be completed but then i did have and was in a dilemma whether i was the only one facing the issue or were there others too! I also posted a status on my Facebook wall but i guess none of my lovely friends did notice... hmmm.. as i always say everyone is busy updating their own, so its ok! I was relieved by my hubby in the morning, (its my morning the same time we have our lunch) who informed me as i awoke from my sleep that blogger was working fine so i need no worry any more. On hearing those words i jumped out of bed to check and only when i saw it with my own eyes was i relieved from heart! I gave a slight sigh and went on to do other house activities.

Thank god i did have a few hours in hand, its an added bonanza i guess... if not, i would have been doomed for sure! Thanks Social spark for the extended timing, and blogitive too!

Enjoy the pic below... lot of times i find myself positioned in the same situation! hehehe...

Something seems to overpower me once again after months i feel myself on the verge of breaking down again... on the verge of a deadly battle between heart and mind. I've struggled to pull myself together during the last few traumatic months, and throughout the terrible year and finally got myself together to face the world. God help me get rid of this anxiety, these fears, the negativeness and the anguish that seems to overwhelm my soul. Calm the restless sea within me...

There has already been a fight in the past few months, i have lost a lot and i don't want to lose again. I don't want to take a chance where i know i might just give myself up as i see my heart breaking into pieces scattered all over the place. My heart feels like its been shredded and crushed for reasons only known to me. The waves have been crashing on my tender heart for too long now and its too much to bear... And somewhere between those pages of life i'm losing myself... I'm not able to calm. Let me calm.... i need calmness... peace of mind

On a night when the weather is just perfect, and a bowl of flavored butter pepper popcorn to go with it, what else could be the perfect way for family entertainment! nothing else for me, coz i get to comfortably cuddle up with family on the couch watching that much awaited flick on Tele or the latest movie released which i'm were lucky enough to get my hands on!

But one thing that irritates me is the fact that sometimes i'm actually out of stock for popcorn at home and especially when i'm just about ready to settle down, i find this out! No matter how much i tell my hubby to stock up packets, we always fall short of popcorn which happens to be my favorite movie snack! This is the time i think i should invest in a popcorn machine! I should pick the pop corn machine for home use which is affordable and ideal for smaller gatherings when i have visitors at home. The smaller 4 oz. machine is ideal for kids while the bigger 8 oz is ideal for entertaining elder guests.

Aside from popcorn machines i should also take interest in the cotton candy machines which is apt for my daughters taste buds, she loves candy. Epopcorn is the best online site for more information if you are interested in snack machines too. Machines for business uses are also available!

I have seen a lot of people talk about Karma on their status's on Fb and finally got to see it visiting someone in my own circle who has been very unfair with me over the years... it must have been an angel visiting when i came across the person which wasn't quite the case when i thought it was, and no one is ever saved from tasting karma. Its natures way of showing you what goes around comes around!!

The ground i was in a few years ago, i see the person standing on that ground looking towards me and i cant help but turn away coz i can actually do nothing about it and sometimes its good for people to learn a lesson they deserve.

Last but not the least thing i would like to say, i don't think i should be happy enough seeing the person in the helpless state they are in right now but i just cant help but convince myself that there is nothing i have done and its just karma's doings. That the sooner they realize how bad it hurts to be in the same shoes, the quicker would they be saved from bringing sins upon themselves by hurting others.

Don't know what made me say this despite the fact that i'm always a little saddened in life for reasons only known to my heart, my best friend in dark times like this. Its not like i lack anything in life but i also miss my mom aside other things, and its those memories that at times make me utterly sad, and depressed when i think i want to talk to her and share some of my deepest secrets with her but then i cant. So, if were with me today i would be many times happier... :-)

But somehow i'm not the one to discourage my friends when they're sad for whatever reasons, and i went ahead and commented on a friends status on Facebook, the lines below, and its so true that i meant it from my heart at that time and even now. Its because i also cherish the past and i have collected a lot of the happy times as precious memories which i do think of to help me deal with the painful present. I wish him (my friend) all the happiness in the world... :-)

Life is meant to cherish the happy past and not be saddened by it, experiences are never repeated because life is meant to discover and explore new experiences to add to your bouquet, which in times to come, will be your gathered basket of happiness... imagine all that happiness? :-)

I cant believe August is no more, we will be welcoming it back again next year but then who knows whether they there will a next year or not! life is so unpredictable... i just keep hoping and praying i get to see another August since it has always been an important month in my life. Its like we were enjoying 31st July, our wedding anniversary and suddenly we are over with 31st August!

With June, July, August gone, we are just a few months away from Dec, the Christmas month! So exited from now! And soon we will be ending year 2011, welcoming year 2012! It was like as i had celebrated Christmas and new year just a few days ago but then its months past since and i am still sailing in an unstable boat!

Lets see what Sept and the remaining few months bring for me, i hope lots of everything ;)