Nishas world and baby Alisha

Just cant wait for my big shopping spree coming on this month and the next. Cant believe Christmas is just a few days from now(it feels so, at least) and i ain't prepared when I'm supposed to be the perfectionist when it comes to organizing parties! I've rarely been doing in recent years but when i used to, it was one hell of a party for everyone! Anyway, so I've got a new wish list and to be the host of any party, one got to be the best dressed amongst all the others in the room! See, that's what i said i ain't hosting parties if I'm not perfectly dressed to be the host ;-)

I've already bought a few things i was missing in my make up and skin care kit, and quite satisfied with the ponds newest white beauty, will review that later after few days of using, but it already feels so great to use, and the skin feel soft and supple unlike the previous white beauty. So, I'm quite keen on trying the other newest products to be lounged in the market soon! Cant wait actually but its not yet salary time for me and I've already made holes in my hubbies pockets! hehe..

I'm not a person who would pounce on every new product out but it doesn't harm to try the products i think products are essential for my make up and skin care kit... I'm loving the new colossal kajal from maybelline and wow, my eyes don't bleed anymore! ow I'm eyeing the newest range of lipsticks from Revlon... lets see what I'm able to get my hand on.. till then I've got to browse thoroughly for reviews if i can find any to avoid getting my money down the drain as the price of cosmetics are soaring high, would would consider jewellery instead but till my get my hands on those new lippies I'm not resting in peace! Wait for my reviews! :-)

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Miss my sister baby sis Amanda(Mandy) who turns sweet 16 today and wondering what shes doing today as she might be celebrating her birthday at the boarding but i wont be able to wish her, coz when we are not even able to meet her, talk to her, or even share sisterly affection being so close yet so far... i wont be able to wish her but on this day i would like to tell her to reach for the stars, never settle for less, and live life to it's fullest.. i'm sad i cant wish you but i did dream about it which means I live reality in dreams, strange but true... we'll be together some day, and we'll make up for all the sisterly love, and fights we missed...and want her to know i'm thinking about her and that i love and care for her... :) :(

Update- 9.am, 27th Oct
The day isn't over so i wish you dear sis, Happy Birthday once again... God bless you Mandy, may you pass out of school with flying colors and i wish you all the happiness of the world... i'm happy for you, even though your are away and i miss you so much and i keep remembering your childish habits and love for dance, and music like me, but you've got to study hard and reach new heights we'll all be proud of... its a whole year since i've met you and dying to see you again... we might be away from each other but you're always in my heart, in all our hearts... we share a bond that nothing can sever, always remember this... i know one day we'll be reading this together and i want to say, i still remember how i danced in the middle of the fields in school on this day many years ago when i heard of your birth! i was overjoyed coz you were what i always wanted, a younger sis, and dint get peace until i saw you for the first time on reaching home from school... Alisha resembled you as a baby! you both looked like Chinese dolls, pink, chink and chubby, and i see you in her when i miss you but i need you sis! So be good, girl, study hard and stay away from trouble... i hope your day was filled with lots of love and laughter... take care, from all of us here :-)

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Tomorrow i'll be even more sad watching all the celebrations and fireworks going off on roof tops!! The first ever Diwali i'm just sitting at home doing nothing!! miss my siblings like anything... wish i could join them... but yeah, we'll make the best out of times wasted at the end of the year, and with this thought at least i'm quite excited now... for those busily celebrating, wish you a happy and safe Diwali :-)

This is the festival of lights i'm talking about, celebrated across India.. coming up on my next post in details!! :-)

Sometimes you feel like you are living yet dead, when your body roams the earth freely doing all of life's daily activities, but your soul, it keeps wandering in an unknown world screaming out to someone to hear you, to hear you, hold you, lend their shoulders to cry on, wipe away your tears... you cant set yourself free nor can others... if they might hear you or not... but then, you realize there is no one who will set you free no matter how much you scream out loud or in silent echoes!!!!!! No ones going to see you even if your cries are loud enough... yes sometimes they might see you but not the real you... they'll all see you the way they want to... and deep inside that battlefield of rain-forests somewhere you are a tangled mess of intertwined vines and you can help but just remain invisible!!!

Here are two videos which best describe my feelings... Song writer Skylar Grey croons 'Invisible' while Evanescence's lead singer, Amy croons 'Bring me to life'... I hope you enjoy the videos and have a happy music monday... :-)

We may fail, we may fall... but we must learn to pick ourselves up no matter what.. :-)





[Verse 1]
I take these pills to make me thin
I dye my hair, and cut my skin
I try everything, to make them see me
But all they see, is someone that's not me

[Chorus]
Even when I'm walking on a wire
Even when I set myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to look my best
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

[Verse 2]
Here inside, my quiet hell
You cannot hear, my cries for help
I try everything, to make them see me
But every one, sees what I can't be

[Bridge]
Sometimes when I'm alone
I pretend that I'm a queen
It's almost believable

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Feeling a little down and too emotionally exhausted but better in health today, not that i'm completely recovered but got to push myself to do things i don't feel like... still got fever and body ache, feels as if my bones are being crushed between boulders! I'm also developing a mind blockage, cant seem to find proper words to express what i'm trying to say, but of course i can understand i'm being ignored, thing is cant even understand how people can ignore you when you've been their pillar of strength at one point of time. Seems as if there is guilt within them...

Things don't seem to fall into place for me... wonder if i'm asking for too much from others! People just deny facts and lie up to your face and that is what gets on my nerves when people don't own up to mistakes! Rather blame others for their own faults and its definitely not fair on their parts but at the moment just got to have the patience to see what falls into place soon... got to watch my steps, for if i react and it doesn't go well with others, might spoil the whole scenario i created! So lets just smile with teary eyes and keep the game on......

Seems like it raining too many hailstones on my this year again. The weather is not at all good to me, coz even though it rains heavily nurturing mother earth, i'm not being nurtured but shattered to pieces! Fever, aches, and cough seems to have raided my body giving me the chills of never-ending 'missing you's'... i miss so many people in my life at the point of time when i don't even know which shall win over, life or death! All i can do is pen down and vent out....

Every time i think of new life, i never even next to it and my life turns bitter with every new chapter i begin with... for every chapter i flip over has its bitter sweet memories, and its lessons taught and learned. But i don't want to talk about chapters now, its about my health which i've always been neglecting wasting my energy on useless things! Got to incorporated a healthy lifestyle once again into my daily routine for how it was last year, i would have been mellowing in glad tidings by now... for me to hint and you to understand ;-)

And once again i will have to withdraw from certain things i walked into too hastily without thinking... i will not walk away but give time to myself and everyone else to understand what is what before finally deciding further...

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Happy Birthday to my beautiful 5 year old daughter Alisha... my darling angel turns 5 today, not yet i guess... she was born at 3.30 am! This is her Birth Story... she's the one who lit my life, and showed me a whole new world... wherever she goes, has heads turning to admire... shes amazing, chooses her own clothes and even knows the meaning of technique! While the world complains about mischievous kids, mine is the calmest kid i honestly have no complains about... i have people saying if child marriage was legal, would get their sons married to her!!! She can smile and win my heart even if i'm at the point of giving up... no words to express how blessed i am to be her mom... and she is no doubt, the greatest love of my life...! :-) God bless my little girl... Love you my doll... :-)

A special day, a special year
and so this brings to you...
Warm congratulations
and the best of wishes, too...
For you're a special Daughter
and no matter what the day...
You're thought about with lots more love
than any words can say.

With Love
on your
Special Day

With brain fluctuations as if a light bulb keeps flashing in my head which pains, fever, vomiting, cough and body-aches i'm going to go insane in the next few days! i sense so many things about to happen to me... but i don't want to repeat another year of treatments and torturous medicines so what going to happen only the one above knows! This year hadn't really taken off well with lot of incidents occurring and too many snakes to handle but somehow managed to wade through it all with quite ease, as least i'm where i am without being harmed! I realized it's not God who's given us tough times but it's our own actions and decisions in life which places us in the position we are in....

We don't blame God when good and satisfactory things happen to us and thank him for the contentment... but we blame him for not listening and answering our prayers in unpleasant times, but what we don't realize is that, what is life if there is no suffering... after all one learns from mistakes when temptations strike and gains from the pains you endure!

Whatever it is, i hope and pray for happier times ahead... Happy Sat/Sunday everyday! :-)

One more week to go for Alisha's 5th Birthday! The day a Chinese angelic looking pinkish baby seemed as if dropped into my arms from the heavens above on the 18th of Oct. She bought into my life much delight and happiness and today whatever is left of my happiness is because of her. A girl had always been my dream and so was my dream fulfilled by the one above whom i know has a hand in one of my greatest dreams coming true. I never knew what was to be born a girl or boy but longed for a girl and it was strange that though i never really knew what gender was taking form in my tummy i had already kept a name ready for her. Not once did did i think a boy would be born, as i always referred to "she" and "her" while talking about the baby inside me. I already had my son and now longed for a daughter whom i could dress and she was born much to the image of what i had of her!!

I would to share my birth story, and i will, so my dear readers do tune into my blog for a mothers birth story of her Angel on the 18th of Oct! Cya all for now........ :-)

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Oh, i just love this song and i'm not sure i've posted it before but i would like to post it once again... i chose this song today coz i'm feeling like, i'm in love... hmmm... you know being in love with the idea of love itself ;-) didn't we all imagine ourselves as Romeo and Juliet while we were in love for the first time or didn't we imagine how it be when we really fell in love, while we were not? they say life gives us an opp to live a fairy tale and i've been living mine ever since i knew the meaning of it! The only diff is my fairy tale never has an ending! Now that's for me to say and you to understand my readers! he he...

Enjoy the video and hope you have a wonderful Music monday and a great week ahead :-)

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With the latest Google pr update i'm not in mood to let angst eat me for petty matters of the heart, yet i am so damn peeved with the fact that despite working much harder than what i used to last year, i am still made to taste Googles bitter penalty!
I wonder where i went wrong or its just an update which is still in process and due to that the none of our blogs pr is available. Some are showing as N/A... so just hoping its not a drop!

Its almost a year i had an intact pr3 so its extremely disheartening to wake up to it suddenly vanishing one day! But then i discussed with a few friends and they think the same of the update still in progress and that our pr would be restored once Google's done.

With my fingers crossed i think i should pen of here...

Oh, i just love this song... just like i love every song of Celine Dion's. Good beats and a great voice, with beautiful lyrics! A brilliant love song :-)I was feeling so low, the feel of darkness taking over, an emotion i've been living with since years... but when i tuned into my youtube, Celine like an angel greeted me with her exceptional voice. Her voice never lets me down coz every track of hers has something to touch you with. Whether your dealing with the loss or loved one, a break up or even a bitter relationship... Celines songs have always soothed our hearts when we need her too... and once again she is an angel to me...

Hope you all enjoy the song and have a great Musicmonday ahead :-)



live my life like a runaway
I hide my dreams in a special place
I'm waiting here for my prince to come
To save me from the darkness

I count the nights, I count the days
The ways, yeah
Don't wanna fight, it would be in vain
So in vain, so in vain

I can run but I can't hide
It's because... I'm living in the shadow of love
Yeah, yeah
To me you are the only one I dream of
I'm living in the shadow of love

Your love surrounds me, it's everywhere
It is my shelter, it is my air
A moon eclipse and a burning sun
Make a shade just for me

For you I wait forever and a day
Yes I would
To be there if your love should come my way
My way

I can run but I can't hide
It's because... I'm living in the shadow of love
Yeah
To me you are the only one I dream of
I'm living in the shadow of love

Too many nights, too many days
I've hidden from the sun
And though I've tried to break away
Your hold on me is just too strong

I love you in the shadow of love

I can run but I can't hide
It's because... I'm living in the shadow of love
Yeah
To me you are the only one I dream of
Cause I'm living in the shadow of love

It's because... living in the shadow of love
Shadow of love, yeah
I can run but I can't hide
It's because... the shadow of love
Shadow of love

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Welcome October! so we have stepped on the month i had been waiting for... time to put in our cottons and pull out the woolens! Its also the month when the Autumn season begins. I begin writing a poem about the season but i've left to complete for i need to really focus on intense emotions to write unlike now... i'm a bit gloomy, but not that intense when i can focus on my emotions and pen them down.

Lets see what tomorrow will bring for this caged bird as i will be going out to a heritage Plaza in my city named Swabhumi. A home bird who hardly move out of home when walks in open space would surely bring eyes upon me as i feel like an alien being stared at. But anyways, i love shopping there at the part apart from admiring the place with all its olden calcutta architectural history as derived from a legend and feasting! Mouth watering pani puri (We all love it, don't we, esp the calcuttans :-)) and other other traditional Rajasthani, Gujarati and South Indian dishes, and more, are served, tantalizing your taste buds such much until you savor them contentedly!

Here is where you get the best, people say who flock to our city during tourism visits or relatives visiting. But let me tell you that most of all the shopping is what i love. What attracts me most is all the traditional stuff you there, i never get to see anywhere else in the whole city. There are also programms and events which take place at the courtyard, and its a delight to watch the clowns walking on stilts come up to you and shake hands esp the kids who are most of the times frightened! Aryan as a kid was always scared of the clowns and so is Alisha when she is the same age as Aryan was as a funk! Hehe..

A great sense of peace and calm is what i get from this place... so it's a must to visit at least once in few months at least if i cant possibly make it every month :-)